This is my next entry in the Alphabe-Thursday on Jenny Matlock’s blog. (you should check out the other entries too) I decided to try writing different emotions for each letter to practice capturing those emotions on paper. This is “D is for Depression” and before you ask, I am fine – thanks.
It’s not about sadness. Sadness is easy.
It’s emptiness. Whatever passed as my heart/soul/essence has been shredded and scooped out.
It is apathetic, hollow deadness.
It isn’t always the same: sometimes it is worse.
Add to the emptiness all the feelings of negativity you can imagine:
Irritation, self-pity, self-loathing, insanity, disgust, rage –
All rolling around inside like smoke spiraling in a moon-dark sky.
Sometimes it is just the emptiness.
It really isn’t about sadness.